Suddenly, I realize that I have built a bridge between her and me.
And I have gave up the right which I could keep touch with her through the bridge.
When I found out where her happiness came from, I konw that I could not make the ship back to life.
Maybe the fact is really difficult for me to accept.
But I am learning to be used to it.
Although sometimes there is something broken in my heart, I must smile at it and pretend not to feel it.
Things have changed a lot. I am not what I used to be, and so are you.
We are not the guys who laugh a lot and sing a lot anymore.
We have secrets and dark flowers living in our bodies.
Remembering that you have said —— We will live together for more than twenty two years, will you?
I am really sorry that the promise is not the promise at all.
When you left me alone, I just stayed with my sadness and my loneliness in silence.
And I am still holding the black in my hand with your name into it.
I just want to protect you from being hurt.
But now, you do not need the raincoat that you used to wear no matter it rained or not.
Our lives is disappearing step by step.
The distance between us is farther and farther, step by step.
The chance we could meet at the crossing is next to never.
I wake up from a terrible dream and quickly fall into the next horrible dream.
Everytime you smile in the dreams, everytime I cry out in the dreams.
So cruel the dreams are, and so the fact is.
If you recongise me someday on the street, do not call out my name.
Just keep silent and your sight following my shadow until the sunshine bace to life.
Put you hand on the cross and pray for me.
God is always with you, my friend.